I am still Terri Clauss, but am going into 2013 with a a burden I hope to unload this year. Prefaced by my 2012 blog, I continue here with an update, the story of WHY I abandoned my entrepreneurial endeavors and my yearly “new direction.” I have been teaching all year, but have not pursued a masters degree. I have completed 2 TESOL (English Language Teaching) certificates in hopes that, if necessary, doors will continue to open to me in this field here or abroad should I need to continue in it.
Why did I return to teaching instead of making my local business successful? It was hard, I didn’t have enough capital and then my I.T. professional husband was laid off. There you have it. I HAD TO go back to work. I have been doing so for the last year now, and since I guess I’m pretty good at teaching ESL, I have more work than I want. I am making money, I am tired and stressed from the schedule and the record keeping. That is not to say that on a daily basis, in the moment, I don’t enjoy actually teaching, being with interesting people from interesting cultures, and being instrumental in people’s journeys to their life goals. It’s a rewarding task and I am grateful to have a great place to do it and a great group of people to work with. I continue, primarily, because husband still hasn’t found work. REALLY! He has 15 years of I.T. software development and project management experience. He has a masters degree in computer science. His company like many others in our country has become a humanity-denying-soul-sucking-outsourcing-to-India money factory for the highest management and stockholders. Though he survived a number of lay-offs, the hollowing out finally included him. Resting in the knowledge that had been so incessantly drummed into us that I.T. professionals could always find work, he took some personal time (4 months) then started looking for a job. Fast forward 1 year and 7 months. All our retirement savings are gone, our credit cards are heading for default, his student loan is growing by $500/month on “forebearance” and I am obliged to take on more work.
Knowing that we are not alone is no consolation. In fact, it is MORE discouraging because it shows that there is something seriously wrong with this country, this culture, and this economy. It is a sign that the working life-blood of this country has become a disposable commodity to a system that rewards those who take their money and run with no concern for their employees, society, or country. Oh Verizon stock is strong all right. Our family’s circumstance is the direct result of that. Wealth redistribution to the top appears to be the law of the land.
All this being said, I want to get back to my local business passion. I can’t open another business now, (though I have an idea)
It is my hope that, in my new direction this year, I can support and advocate for some amazing, hard-working, and creative people who are working their businesses diligently hoping for the day when our collective illusion that the chain/corporate restaurant or retailer is the best place to spend our money is exposed as the exploitative conduit of money to the already-wealthy that it is. It is my hope that the multitudes in the suburbs will break through their mass fantasy that downtown Denver is dangerous and that East Colfax is nothing but hookers, drug dealers and creepy homeless people. I live here. I love it here. I am raising my kids here. I’ll tell you why in upcoming blogs.